Breaking news- Cindy Crawford is 43 and (gasp) has cellulite. Yes, this is actually considered a "top story" by US weekly today. It made me laugh. Cellulite isn't really anything that crosses my mind, but if I have it, Cindy Crawford now confirms it is acceptable (phew)!
I have actually been dropping weight at an insane amount over the past month or so. I haven't done anything too radical. But, when I went to the Gap I was down from my pre-preggo size 4 to a size 2, which genuinely surprised me.
Cindy in all her "real woman" glory.
I thought I would be so relived and happy to be back to my pre-Hollish size. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that I can recognize myself again. I am shocked that my abs are flat as a board and firm after having the kiddo. But, when I look down, there are days that I feel a little sad. It reminds me of when we left Amsterdam. What was once a loving home was just an empty apartment.
Last night no one in our house got more than two hours sleep causing Skyler to have far more salty moments than sweet. On days like today, when everything is a bit more difficult than it could be, I find my hand running over my abdomen thinking that tiny apartment will stay vacant. Having a child is the best thing we have ever done but it is so much work. And, because we have no family support there is no one to lighten the load. And, if you carry any load too long it starts to make you a little tired and wary.
Of course, there are other days where I look around the room and feel like there are people missing from our lives. A baby P and a baby H. And, I miss them with my whole heart even though we have not met yet.
I don't know what the future holds. In fact it is fair to say, I hardly know what the week holds. There is no way of knowing if I will ever go back down that road and bear another child. To be certain the only thing I I do know is that I am eating the yummiest El Paso Nachos for dinner. And, I will even load on extra cheese in honor of Cindy Crawford and her news worthy cottage cheese thighs, which are managing to piss off women everywhere.
4 comments:
Kim K. came out with the same
confession a while back. Cindy Crawford is at an age where cottage
cheese thighs are a fact of life.
If that's her biggest worry, she
needs to get down on her skinny
knees and thank God. So glad you
find it as ridiculous as I do. Enjoy those nachos!
Love and hugs to all S-Cs,
Mom
I think I might need to hang up the US weekly. Their other big headline was that Jessica Simpson called her dog a lesbian. I am not exactly sure how that even qualifies as news of any sort. So lame.
Couldn't agree more Mom! Enjoy the day Sara, to-morrow has enough worries of it's own. Hope you get more sleep to-night. Love Mum X
teeth are coming, teeth are coming! Sleepless for awhile, I totally I understand that. I think I was up 5 times a couple nights ago. Jessica is slowly getting her second set of teeth. Unfortunately once teething starts it won't stop until around age 2! But, at least you get a break in between teeth and try to enjoy a nap during the day every once in awhile. You are so blessed like I am to have a supportive, helpful husband! Gotta love that!
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