Tuesday, October 6, 2009

don't look down.


In life I have three major roles, and I am doing them all half-assed.

I am not the kind of mother I want to be because I work.
I am not the kind of employee I want to be because I am a mother.
I am not the kind of wife I want to be because I am a working mother.

It's a tightrope walk done at the lightening speed of life.
It's compromises aplenty.
It's about never having anything perfectly done
and finding the level of good enough.


It's sacrifice upon sacrifice.
It's race on a treadmill that never stops.
It's too little too late.

I can give Skyler a private education,
but I cannot give her all my time.

It's a bitch.
This modern life.
I fucking hate it.

2 comments:

Chanda said...

If you're just working so you can send her to private school then you could homeschool her when the time comes. Then you can give her both a great education and be with her all the time. Just sayin.

Mine will probably go to public school, the same one I went to. (That is, unless their grandparents want to help pay for private) It was good enough for me. Hey, I even got into an Ivy League school. :)

By the way, I think you're being entirely too hard on yourself. I seriously doubt you do anything half-assed!

Sass said...

I agree with Chanda....half-ass is not in your vocab.